Thoughts at 3 months

3 months! If I've got it right, Albie is no longer a newborn. It's so obvious we have a baby on our hands now. I go upstairs and I can hear baby sounds whether it's cooing, whinging, laughing, or chatting. We do have a chatterbox on our hands so you always hear something and it's definitely not the sweet sound of napping we rarely get that in the daytime! At the moment we're not getting much feeding either we have a little pickle who doesn't know what he wants.

Albie is great fun though and a real heartbreaker with his smiles and giggles.

I'm going back to work in two weeks and while I was excited about it previously, I am now dreading it. It makes sense though. I went to uni, got into a silly amount of debt because of it and need to reduce the debt by working. In my head it feels wrong to have all that ambition as a youngster and spend all that money on education and then have a baby and struggle with all that debt with statutory maternity pay. My heart feels different though. I want to spend every day making my little baby smile even on the bad days when I can't get him to nap or drink milk and he whinges at me all day.  Oh if I could have a word with my 18 year old self and say "don't do it!! Get a job now!" All this dread means I'm not making the most of my time off and I'm sulking on the sofa a lot of the time.  I'm sure once I get back into the swing of things at work I'll have more precious moments with Albie and we will make the most of our time together. We have to.

Albie has definitey changed physically, he is holding his head up really well now. He really isn't a fan of tummy time and because of his flat head it's been suggested he sits in a "bumbo" - Albie is not a fan of that either. What Albie lacks in all those physical things, he makes up for with plenty of interaction so reading books and putting lots of colourful objects in front of him is a winner. 

Wandering with baby #2

Ah London. Since we're moving soon it's going to be much further away from us so one Sunday morning at silly o'clock recently we got on the train and were at Southbank in time for breakfast.

Albie was interactive for most of the day but seemed to sleep when we saw some of the sights like London Eye and Battersea power station later on in the day.

We made the most of quiet trains and took the tube to Brixton village for a walk around and a cup of tea.

I love venturing around London with Mark. We never make plans just plod about.  After Brixton we took the tube back into central London.  When we got to Pimlico I looked at the map and saw it was positioned by the river so we took a gamble (since the underground map isn't exactly the most accurate) and got off there hoping to walk down the river.  

After walking for some time along the river I got pretty tired and so we jumped on a bus to Leicester Square where we got some lunch in a bar where Albie lounged out on the chair next to me and giggled away.  He didn't sleep much at all and decided to catch up on it 48 hours later having a 12 hour sleep! Not seen that again so put it down to his exhausting day in London - shame really :)

Happy world book day!

Ahh this takes me back! I remember getting vouchers at school for a discount at a book store and I would enjoy perusing the shelves wondering what book I would spend the rest of the night reading (and then waiting for my parents to go to bed before switching the lamp back on and sneaking in some more time to carry on reading -  rebel I know!).

I was such a book worm as a child I loved getting back from school, hopping on my bike with my backpack and begging the local library to let me take more than the allocated eight books (eight?!) home.  I don't read super intelligent books, reading for me is an escape from the everyday worries I don't need fancy literature. I'd like to push myself though and read better books but for now I'm getting ridiculously excited to read old childhood favourites to my little man.  In fact half of me is desperate for him to get involved at story time rather than stare at the pictures as if to say "this is not a bottle mummy" but the other half doesn't want him to grow too fast, it's gone too fast already!

Wandering with baby #1

I thought I'd post a regular series of what I get up to with Albie. The weather when we got out was so dull so I thought I'd give these photos a moody black and white edit using the afterglow app it's amazing and so much quicker than VSCO CAM.  

I decided to wear the wrap so that Albie's arms could come out and he was much happier. I'm still having to hold onto his head, I can't wait until he can hold it up himself it should all be a lot easier then.

Next time I have some pictures from our recent jolly to London.  We took our more sturdy carrier out with us at the weekend and we survived!